Well, watched episode 85 of Naruto, and I will say, I am rather happy about that, amongst other things. I am feeling generally good today I suppose, even though I had a long, hard day of work. My work-mate and I, waxed a large area of the floor at work, and it looks "so-so" as I would say, although, because of the recurring method in which we have to continue to wax, it looks about as good as it can look. Bleh.

Reading Thieves World book 10, "Aftermath", and am nearly finished. Had to search for a few of the TW: novels on Ebay, because I noticed while looking through my stash that I was apparently misisng one, and of course, I got a little carried away and noticed that some of the 'offshoot' novels were available on Ebay as well, so I had to put in a bid for them. Had to. Heh.

About to watch a movie, not been able to decide if I should watch more Anime in front of the PC (Scrapped Princess, currently), or if I should proceed to watch something on the big-ass Television which dominates my living room (and hardly gets any use...) because I hardly find interest in the damn thing except on weekends and for video games (PS2/Xbox/Gamecube) which ... often hold no interest for me. *sigh*

I turn 27 soon. I am tired of turning {current age +1} each year, because as I slowly begin to get older, I notice my mortality and frail body more and more, and notice that I think I have no desire to continue aging and dying at each moment. I am certainly 'afraid' of dying as it were, because I am afraid of missing all the things that keep me interested, plus, I am afraid of any "painful" experience that will come along with the actuality of the dying part. But, more terrifying to me then the actual physical death part, are two aspects that relate directly with death & dying. Age. I am -terrified- of being old, frail... unable to take care of myself or those others that need me to take care of them, along with anyone that I care for being in the same situation. Loss of consciousness. I am afraid of losing my consciousness to the primordial crap that floats around out there.. whether my 'soul' if I even have one, moves on to heaven, or if physically, my brain goes into atrophy and it is like going into a deep sleep from which I never awaken. Either way, I am absolutely terrified. I am a (still-young) man who is afraid of very little, but that.. old-age & death, are/is probably my biggest fear right now. So fearful of it am I, that it is almost always in my thoughts, whether in the forefront or in the back of my nagging mind. There are only a few situations in which I don't think of it, and those usually involve my brain being otherwise occupied, such as.. sex, or.. alcohol (although I rarely drink). I wish there was a way to be immortal... take some pill, once a day that helps the cells regenerate perfectly, so that instead of aging, time literally stands still for the body... perfect regeneration/agelessness. Awww. I'd buy into that bandwagon. That, or if worshipping Cthulhu and Yog-Sothot were any help, I'd be there too. It's a shame...

Anyhow, on that note:

Don't forget to hide under a rosebush during a nuclear missile raid.

Later,

\Koltur

Can't say there is much to say today, other then I am writing this after just watching "Battle Royale" a japanese drama/horror/action movie. I guess. Hmm. A bunch of schoolkids are taken to a deserted island and forced to kill each other until one is left. (That's the main description, I would give), other then that, there are several plot twists and the acting is rather good, and I rather enjoyed it, even if it was wierd as hell. I much recommend this film.

Thanks be to Donn.

Nothing else to report. I'm tired, I'm going to sleep.

Later.

Home, been home for several hours and I was busy doing a bunch of left-over housework, left-over as in, not quite yet done, even though we moved into this place a month ago and the housework was more or less the unpacking & arranging of much of our stuff. I went through several boxes of crap as well as reorganizing laundry amongst other things, all while my episode of Naruto was downloading. *Drool* I can't wait to check it out, although now that I've been sitting at the PC, I could have been watching it instead of rambling. Hmms.

Some of the Cowboy Bebop soundtrack tunes really suck!

I just thought I would give that minor insight into that. I don't know if I mentioned it or not, but I scored my Naruto, Konoha Village Forehead Protector, which certifies me as a Ninja Academy Graduate. Hmmm. I suppose, using the arts of stealth and assassination, I can go far in this world. Hmmms. I have recently killed my first victim. It was a spider. I was bribed with "well-being" and "satisfaction", I believe this was adequate payment. Soon, I believe my next victim(s) will be my wife's cats. Hmms.

Anyways, I am going to go about watching this copy of my episode of Naruto, and perhaps check out a episode of Scrapped Princess before I crash out for the day. Yuck, I don't want to go to work tonight, although I am happy that my big walloping wage pays my bills. (Although, my last raise didn't change the size of my paychecks at all, strangely. I believe it's because it thrust me into a different tax bracket. *sniff*)

Oh well.

Later

\Koltur

P.S. Leprosy is -Not- your friend, no matter what Luke says.

Well, at home, it's early in the morning and I am back from work. I am damn happy that work is over now and I am at home and idly resting in my comfy computer chair, although it is not quite as comfortable as normal considering my body is becoming not quite as comfortable as time moves along. Isn't that nice? Still reading through the Thieves World books, one book at a time and I am on "Soul of the City", Book 8 of Thieves World.

I don't have very much that I can think of to say and if I did, I would surely rant and rave about whatever struck me as important on that particular day so as to do so.

I am looking forward to Naruto 84, I need to watch some Hyperpolice and Shingetsutan Tsukihime and Hundred Stories as well as the AH! My Goddess - The Movie... so I will be done watching some anime I have stocked up to watch as well as what I am anticipating. (Also anticipating Tenchi Muyo - RyoOhki OVA#4 very much.)
It's a shame but there is not enough real smooth anime coming out at this time (or at least, not that I know of) as well as a distinct lack of cool computer games and so on and so forth. Although, there -is- definitely one thing that I am highly looking forward to, thanks be to Squaresoft or Square-Enix or whatever, whoever these people are and the copyrights they hold.

Suffice it to say, with what I have already printed, I have basically put everything I could think of, even though as I write this I am starting to think up a bit more crap to include.. like, check out this link if you are interested in User-made stuff for Neverwinter Nights (mainly modules) cause this guy most certain was able to create some real cool stuff. And if you are interested in 3rd Edition D&D check out this site Code Monkey Publishing for their E-Tools program which is basically a character generator/editor/etc. for D&D 3rd Edition.. you'll know what I mean if you are a D&D fan, etc.


Anyhow, that's it.

Later

\Koltur

Can't think of much new to announce today, and not much to say other then. Damn am I happy that it is friday. Yikes. My legs are absolutely killing me for the some-odd 30 miles or so that I've had to walk the past couple nights pushing a heavy, loud, smelly machine, then of course last-night (Thursday Night 10pm-6:30am Friday Morning) I had to do a bunch of stocking in the Chemicals area instead of Floor Maintenance, therefore I am totally roached. Damn I must say again. Either way, I am happy that I am no longer at work and I can rest my tired-ass legs and back in my happy computer chair with a nice cold coke in hand and some good tunes on the mp3 player...

Aside from that, on Book 7 of the Thieves' World series. Dead of Winter. It's about Chenaya. Blah, who cares about that chick anyhow. Mlughhh. Is my typical, non-sensical, guttural response to how I care about that character.

I can't think of much else that I want to include here.

Later,

\K

Well, hello again. Today there isn't much news to report, other then the fact that I have went out and bought a new printer. A Lexmark X5250 which can apparently do an *amazing* 20 Pages per Minute, which is probably exactly what I was looking for. (At least as long as it is faster then the dirty bitch that I currently have which is something like 5ppm, altho' it was free and that is what it important...)

Hmms. I got a cool Sephiroth statue.. but it is completely metal and so I need to use some "Acryllic" paints to paint the bastage, as well as a cool Drizzt miniature .. I'll have a picture of that later, but hopefully , since I have spent so damn much $$ on D&D books nad so on and so forth, well, I might as well have some fun with it. (Plus, we may start using miniatures for strategical battle and so on.. or at least, it would give a good perspective of it).

I could ramble away at our last campaign session and how things are much improved (in my opinion) and how I think that the next several games (if I DM them for our *powerful* characters) will be much improved then they were previously, at least, I believe there will be several pieces of fun and whatnot whereas that is something we may have been missing before.

Oh. I updated the page, a little bit. It seems "dynamic" now, wow. Huzzah.

Anyhow, not much more.

Neverwinter Nights

Later

\K

Been something like a week or two since I last posted on the site, let's see, what exactly has happened.

Hmms, I hurt my back there and was confined to the house for a few days, that was absolutely fun. I don't think so, actually it was rather painful and I still have the nice stiffness in my back to go with that, although I did get a few days outta work, they were not exactly fun and enjoyable. What did I do during them? Not much, I slept and read mainly because I was in too much pain to do much else.

This week. Back at work. Today? Took wife to Airport at approximately 6:00am (made it there around 6:30ish because she was running late) so that she could catch her airplane to California to go do her work stuff and have fun at E3 that big kind of computer-game convention thing that I understand is very important and big and lots of flashy stuff and whatever. Whew.

I don't really care about E3 to be honest.. except that the time they are wasting there could have been used to keep working. Bastards.

Been reading Thieves' World like a mad-man. Can't seem to get enough. Been reading it at work, at home, etc. etc. Eventually I'll be out and then I will have to read something else. I'm almost sad at the prospect. You can find a link to some Thieves' World stuff by going here.

Hmms. Not much else for me to report.

Well, we did game on Saturday with our friend and it was good. And I am getting to know 3rd Edition D&D much better then originally anticipated, as I have been steadfastly reading through many of the books. I have a nicely large stack of them so far and soon I will have the entire collection so that I can put my grubby little hands through them all, page through them, absorb them and so on and so forth, much like I did with the old 1st Edition AD&D books when I was a kid visiting my grandfather down in Blue Earth, Minnesnota. Ah well.

Anyhow, I will talk later.

Goodbye, Mortals.

\Koltur